June 3, 2008

Today is the marking of Madeysen Elyse Kleve's begining to eternal life. Thank you to all the friends that took the time to give their prayers and thoughts out to the grieving familys.

You never really know how much it hurts to lose someone until the moment is gone and past. God forbid this should ever happen to anyone, but in some cases its unavoidable.

I seem to forget how hard the closing of a life can be. Yet everytime it comes about it all comes back to me very fast. The tears that are shed and the hearts that remain broken can finally after closure be dried up and mended. Though this is not easy it is done alot.

Broken Chain

We little knew that moning God was going to call your name. In life we loved you dearly, in death we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you. You did not go alone. For part of us went with you. The day God called you home.

You left us beautiful memories. Your love is still our guide, and though we cannot see you, you are always by our side. If tears could build a stariway and memories were a lane. We would walk right up to heaven and bring you back again.

unkonwn.....

This passage was written on the hand out given by the church. When I read this the tears began to flow and didn't stop until the last moments in the cemetery.

During the ceremony Maddies father had a little story to share. As he read it I thought long and hard. He mentioned the fact that Maddie was beginning to prep for college and before she went she wanted to show him yet again how much he meant to her. She put together a slide show of pictures of herself and her family. In the background she played "Ready Set Don't go" by Billy Rae and Myle Cyrus. The ironic thing about this is she made this slide show a week before the accident, and refused to watch it with her father for the simple fact of not wanting to see him cry. The question in my mind was did she know she was ready to go and didn't know another way to say it or was it just irony.

Now that Madeysen has been laid to rest we can all move forward and live life as we once did. Even though she is gone she will forever stay in our hearts.

Wow what a weekend it was.

Friday night a few of us got together and decided to go about the town and hit a few bars.  It was a lot of fun.  First we hit up Pickle Park in Fridley and watched "Good For Gary" play a few songs.  They were pretty good.  After about an hour there we decided to hop over to Blaine and check out Majors where we finished up the night.  I haven't seen that many people in a bar for a long time.  The dj did his best to keep everyone on the dance floor and by the end of the night you couldn't see the floor anymore. 

Saturday I went out to my Aunt's house and helped the family tidy up the yard for the upcoming family functions.  We spent the day mowing, weed whipping, hauling logs and drinking.  Sometimes I forget how big our family actually is. 

Sunday was supposed to be a day to sit, but that quickly turned into the daily chores everyone hates to do.  However, after the work was done we hit the lake.  Granted it was 80 outside, but the lake isn't quite warm enough.  It did feel good on the weekend sunburn.  After the lake we got a call from another Aunt to come out for some food and volley ball.  I wouldn't say you could call any of us good but we managed to play a couple games in the few hours we were out there, dodging kids, dogs and each other. 

Now that its over I'm ready to start another week of work and chores.  I just hope the weekend comes quick!!!

The night was rough and the day was short.  However my mind almost never wandered from the family of the victims in the car crash Wednesday afternoon.  I found it easier for me to think of reasons as to why it was her turn to go.  Granted I and several others don't see it fair, but if you see it in another prospective the heart tends to not hold such hurt. 

Alot of the times you hear the conversation about god fluttering about many people.  Does he exist or does he not.  It's a never ending conversation that will live on well past our times.  I see it this way, God is someone that everyone is taught to look up to and ask for a happier place than where we are now.  It's hard to know if he is a natural being or a just another story book character that someone dreamed up one night. 

The way I found today to keep my tears from flowing was to think of Maddie not dying in an act of stupidity or at the carelessness of someone elses hands, but looking at it more as the end of her book.  Maddie's book was yes far shorter than some, but maybe that was the plan.  Her job on earth was over.  Now she gets to look at another life or even finally getting to lay eternally in the sanctity of heaven where most of us dream to be.  Either way she is happy and we will eventually see her again.  We may not recognize her but we'll know her by the presence that she impressioned us with in the time that she was here. 

Once again I ask that you keep the thought for Maddie going.  Maybe not today maybe not tomorrow but someday We'll all get to see her shining sould one last time.