Everything in my life has come about because of a choice.  Recently I made a bad choice, nothing time can't heal.  But because of it I've been pushed down another path that I went through about 3.5 years ago.  I have the choice to keep it moving or stopping it.  I just want to word vomit everything out, but I can't.  I always considered myself a very respectable in control indivisual.  However this week I feel week and confused.  AHHHHHHH!  It's so hard to even talk about.  I can't believe I'm even in this place again with more at stake this time...barf!